Okay, so I went to a meeting called Cross Currents. At this point I'm unsure how I feel about the 8 week program, but a couple things were said that I totally appreciated. In regards to relationships: When we begin a relationship it's typically because we see in other people- filler for the holes we have in our soul. We can't expect other people to fill our holes, because they can't. They have their own holes. Sometimes God's love just drains out those holes instead of filling us up and overflowing. What a thought!
So for the past couple weeks I've been struggling with the idea of baptism. I never got baptized when I said "the prayer" I was like 3 at the time. Through-out the years it was much on my mind, something I wanted to do. But the way my life has developed over the years had me questioning the purpose of baptism. I'd grown up with the doctrine, so I was familiar with all the reasons, it just wasn't meaning anything to me.
My church was doing a baptismal service. I briefly considered getting baptized, and pretty much decided otherwise. One of the pastors and I were talking at one point and he randomly asked if I'd ever been baptized. I replied to the negative, and he asked me to consider it.
I did consider it for 2 weeks. That Sunday of the baptismal service I was still going back and forth about it. I showed up for the potluck dinner, left my phone in the sanctuary with my jacket. I ate and socialized for a while, and then went back to check my phone. Not because I was expecting anything, just to see if there was anything. As I picked up the phone it rang. It was my friend Megan just calling to see what my decision was. I told her I was still undecided about it. We talked for a while, she prayed for me...
After she hung up, the reality of what just happened blew me away. God very effectively just called me on the phone to tell me it was a good thing to get baptized. What were the chances that I would be there to answer the phone at just that moment? Pretty darn slim. This is how God speaks to me, through coincidences. I was trying to verbalize this to my mom through out the week. She wasn't understanding. I merely told her that he speaks to me through people and music and stuff. I didn't realize that it was actually coincidences that actually are what it is. Cool.
So anyway, I got baptized. It was actually pretty fun. I made people laugh several times. Which is good for me. I'm not that funny of a person as a rule, (compared to the rest of my family) but Sunday... I was funny. It was good. :-)
As of yesterday Cracker Barrel pretty much offered me a management position, they're finally ready to move forward. Pretty much I have no idea what I'm going to do. Is this the move I want to make? I was very positive about it when approached with it, because I don't want to shut the door. But I hate working. Okay, I take that back, I like working on my own terms. In management I'll be working 50 hours a week. for only $37000 a year, minus taxes. Which isn't really that much. But at the same time, it'll be training... I've waited 7 years for this. Dude. What road to take?
The end.
