exhausted

I'm just so tired.

I'm cranky too. Comes with the territory, I guess, but damn.

When it comes to boys, I got on Tindr to man shop. At first it seemed promising, matched with several right off the bat, and then nothing came of it. They'd talk for a few days and then fall off the planet.
I'm just tired of being alone. Not that I really am dying to be in a relationship, but I really do miss having someone that finds me attractive and wants to do life with me.
Basically I found that they just wanted me to be their real life porn buddy... and that's just frustrating.
I'm pretty sure I have alot to offer, but no one wants it. And that's disheartening.

Work has been a huge bundle of stress.

My boss is being super shady. and that stresses me out, and hasn't been paying me on time, and is gone all the time. And doesn't talk to me as much so I have no idea what I'm dealing with. And that stresses me out so incredibly much.
He's taken money from the salon account--- for sheets for his bed. Seriously. And had me pay myself from the salon acct even though I don't have the money for it. - I only accepted because I need to pay rent in the morning. But he has to put it back tomorrow- I have to pay the girls.

sigh.

I just have no idea what I'm doing with my life.

it's been rough

I've had the most ridiculous week.
My boss decided to take over a nail and hair salon- due to missed rent. Then, he decided he didn't have time to run it, so here, Rebekkah- you take care of it. So- I've been doing that. But, the girl on the nail side was stealing- and wasn't licensed- and when pressured decided to come take everything. There is now a full on police investigation happening all because I called the cops. It's been incredibly stressful.

Now I'm trying to do both the granite work and the salon work, I have no idea what I'm doing on either job, I'm just faking it. So far it's been fine, but it's not going to stay fine. I'm super worried about it all. I'm afraid I'm going to miss something and it'll be all over for these girls who are depending on me to make this business work.

I need signs, I need a name for sure, I need insurance maybe, I need to make sure the taxes are being taken care of. I need systems in place, I need more parking, I need to advertise.  I need a phone and credit card machines. Sigh.


We'll see.


In other news, I went man shopping last night, because I've been so lonely. I don't know why. Found one that seems interesting, we'll see. From Minnesota.