nope

 He said he only feels the friend vibe for me and hasn't spoken to me since. 

That's fine. I didn't want to stay in Ohio anyhow. 

I went to the rootstown cracker barrel this morning, saw several faces that I knew. How crazy. It's been 20 years.  The majority of them didn't remember who exactly I was but they knew my face. I worked there 20 years ago. I can't even tell you how much that just blows my mind. 

I'm still stressing on my next moves. I don't really know what to do next. Vermont in a few days. Looking forward to that because I'm going to go to niagra falls on the way. 

Kind of dreading the time in north georgia at aunt barbs. Just because I'm going to have to store my stuff somewhere. And decide where next. I need sunshine. So it might end up being florida again. I might go down to the keys. We'll see. See if I can find a job. and a place to live. 

There are things that I require to be happy. People. and Sunshine/water, I don't know why it's been such a struggle to have both. 

But what is actually next for my life? I don't know. Selling the book.... an LLC whereever I land, so I can also step into the lifecoaching, 

but also I want to live in the keys. 

wtf

 Why is this my life? 

Why is there always a curveball thrown at me?

I don't know what to do.

This time the curveball is Chris. I accidently found him. Sunday I got bored and kinda depressed that everyone here is in a relationship, so I just looked to see what the single scene looked like here. I had ZERO intention of matching with anyone. I just wanted to see that there were still single people. 

and then there he was. Earth shattering blue eyes. Profile that spoke of a good soul. So, I said hello. And hello has turned into so much more. How do we have so much in common? He seems like a steady soul and one that cares deeply. I don't even know what to do with it.  So we're in the wait and see phase. But, this was NOT part of my plan. I wasn't even supposed to be here. 

I don't want to stay in Ohio. But I could. 

Book

 The book is still waiting on the editor to get it back to me with the final proof read. It's agonizing. She's had it for SO long. like a month at this point. I just need it back so that I can get it formatted to book form and get it finalized for publication. There's so much to do still and I'm just sitting here with my hands tied because I can't do anything else without the copy of the book. I finished the book description and author bio today. Ally is finishing up the author page on my site. It's all coming together, I just need the damn book! hahah oh well. Hopefully it'll be exceptionally perfect. 

Haven't heard from H. Not that I was really expecting to, but yeah. Crazy how it can just disappear like nothing.