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I realize it's about time I update this. So much going on, it's hard to know where to start.

I went to my first business meeting two weeks ago. It was so intimidating. It was something like a chamber of commerce meeting, but there are all these small business owners that get together and have lunch and promote themselves. Having never been to anything like that before, and the fact that the business I'm helping my dad with hasn't even had it's first customer yet, it was really hard to do this. The business is my dad's brain child, so he would've been a better spoke person, but apparently I didn't do so awful bad. My mom was there also, since she is technically the business owner. I half expected to let her do the speaking, but she was extremely nervous, so I took it.

I was asked to write a weeks worth of study guide on the last half of James chapter 4. God has been stretching me so much lately, definitely outside my comfort zone. I started in verse 10 and ran the theme of humility all the way down to the end of the chapter. I came up with this weird metaphor with the one James used using vapor to describe us.

Think of a vapor floating in the wind upwards, but for some reason, that vapor gets the idea that if it continues going up it will dissipate even further, so it must go back down some, or at least sideways. The air keeps prodding it upwards but it fights as though it thinks it knows best.  It gets caught in a down draft, and the thunderstorm dissipates it faster than if it had continued up towards the Sun. If it had continued up, it would have filled the spot it could’ve had in the ozone layer. As it was, it dissipated lower and it will take its broken leftover molecules that much longer to reach the top.

I don't know that the science makes sense, but I tried. :-) It kinda just came to me.

I got another marriage proposal. Haha. Gosh, the weird ones come out of the woodwork for me, I don't know what the deal is. I was kind of mean in my letter in response. I take that back, not in response the first time. First time I just said I didn't think we were actually a match because theologically I am no longer anywhere near him. So good luck on the wife search. Then he wrote back to ask how I felt about the age of the earth, God's sovereignty, predestination and the "church". Then I was mean.  I said, "See, that's just the thing. Things like the age of the earth, God's sovereignty, Predestination, and "church"... I don't care. Who cares about how old the earth is? Does it make a difference in my walk with God, and if it does, WHY?! God's Sovereignty, what does that even mean?! God is God, God is in all and through all things. He IS. Predestination- whatever. God being beyond time, of course he knows all things before they happen. It's like the chicken and the egg question. And the "church"? the church is the body and the body is every christian out there. so what about the church? It's people.

By not normal, I don't mean I have different arrangement of theological boxes that I fit into. I mean, I try to not have boxes, at all.


I have no desire to debate/argue about any of this, I'm just letting you know where I stand."

Too mean? It's honest at least. More than a little sarcastic. Oh well.


There is more to share, but it will have to wait for another time. I have work to do.

I noticed something the other day

I was just looking at the titles of my blog posts and noticing of late how many use the word "insane" or "crazy". Hmmmm. What does this say about me? Is the straightjacket imminent?

I have survived another year, and have attained my 26th year of existence. What does this year hold in store for me?  I feel like it has the potential to be pivotal if I allow it. I feel like every day there are choices to be made that either set me closer to becoming who I wish to become, or slide me back if I take the easy route.

I was talking to my friend Katie the other day about sin. She was saying that she has difficulty always choosing what's right. I guess she went to a party the other day she was uncomfortable at, and knew she shouldn't be there because of things that were going on. But she didn't leave.  She sees me as this person who doesn't make poor life decisions, who doesn't do any major sins.. I had to explain to her that no sin is greater than another. Just because I'm wired in a way that forces me to not drink/smoke/mess about, doesn't mean anything. Because I'm so keen on being true to myself and to other people, it's the little things that get me. The things that "normal" people think would be lesser sins for me they're huge because I'm wired in such a way that I want to do what's right.  (Not that I'm saying that there is greater or lesser sins, they're all equal. But societal acceptance of some is greater than others.)
Just interesting.

I'm going to bed. My body decided to get sick yesterday, so I about died. Did absolutely nothing, and then got up for work at 4 this morning. Now that I've been awake for 19 hours or so, I think I should possibly go to bed so I'm not sick tomorrow. But I am feeling better. Bah, weather change.

Yes, I may be insane.

So, you know how I told you I was taking that class on Revelation by John Geib? Well, he was talking about our spiritual bodies that we will supposedly have, and how Jesus after he was resurrected he could walk through walls, so he told us how in quantum physics the truth is, everyone and thing is vibrating on the same level, but if we were able to control what level we vibrated at, we would be able to walk through "solid" matter. That sparked a whole line of thought in me. There are all the stories of mutants, of alphas, of heroes, people that can do what normal humans can't. There is this thought that during the Millenium reign there will be normal humans and the spiritual beings alive together, until the time the rest of the humans die, and everyone is in their spiritual state. Dude. I could make a whole religion out of this. Mutants will rule the earth! hahahaha
See how sacreligious I can be?! Gosh. It's scary.

Just to go another step further, I've been thinking alot about reincarnation lately. I doubt if you remember the story of the cult guy I met like 2 years ago. Suffice to say I went out to his organic farm (not knowing he was pretty culty) and there he informed me I'd been reincarnated and this was actually my 15th time back on the planet. I laughed. I still laugh. But, Elijah was John the Baptist? His spirit in him? Really? Interesting.  There are stories of a kid who vividly remembers being in WWII, and being shot down even though he'd never seen or read anything on it. Knowing details that were unknowable by anyone else. That's weird, and interesting.

See, I told you I was insane. I think about things too much for my own good.