I was just looking at the titles of my blog posts and noticing of late how many use the word "insane" or "crazy". Hmmmm. What does this say about me? Is the straightjacket imminent?
I have survived another year, and have attained my 26th year of existence. What does this year hold in store for me? I feel like it has the potential to be pivotal if I allow it. I feel like every day there are choices to be made that either set me closer to becoming who I wish to become, or slide me back if I take the easy route.
I was talking to my friend Katie the other day about sin. She was saying that she has difficulty always choosing what's right. I guess she went to a party the other day she was uncomfortable at, and knew she shouldn't be there because of things that were going on. But she didn't leave. She sees me as this person who doesn't make poor life decisions, who doesn't do any major sins.. I had to explain to her that no sin is greater than another. Just because I'm wired in a way that forces me to not drink/smoke/mess about, doesn't mean anything. Because I'm so keen on being true to myself and to other people, it's the little things that get me. The things that "normal" people think would be lesser sins for me they're huge because I'm wired in such a way that I want to do what's right. (Not that I'm saying that there is greater or lesser sins, they're all equal. But societal acceptance of some is greater than others.)
Just interesting.
I'm going to bed. My body decided to get sick yesterday, so I about died. Did absolutely nothing, and then got up for work at 4 this morning. Now that I've been awake for 19 hours or so, I think I should possibly go to bed so I'm not sick tomorrow. But I am feeling better. Bah, weather change.
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