Repercussions

There are repercussions poor life decisions in my life. So far as I know, I've only made 1. The conscious choice to not do what I knew was right. The fallout from said choice has been gradual. It didn't only effect me, but several other people close to me as well. There are so many realizations looking at it, "if I hadn't... then that would have never happened". Of course, the blame is not entirely on me. But, see, there is a difference between me and everyone else. I know better. I see the consequences. I willfully ignored what would/could/did happen because it was what I wanted and I hoped I was wrong. Maybe, just maybe I would be allowed to make a poor life decision. Everyone else gets to.
But the magic given to me,  the power of joy, kindness, honesty, and love- when tempered by a conscious choice for less than that- for selfish reasons, the magic cannot withstand. The power weakens.
I realize I sound like a crazy person. Magic isn't real. But what I refer to as magic, is, and does happen every day.
In Christian terms it is referred to as walking in the Spirit. The connection to God and the universe is tangible. Following the prodding of the Spirit to do or say or leave alone.
The connection to all things- in which I see our creator- is evident in all things. We get lost in our own minds and choose not to see it more frequently than not. But the realization that each living thing has an aspect of God, should you choose to see it, it makes the magic real. It's living in the moment. It's being aware of life. It's knowing the breath you just took you had no real power over. You cannot control the future and you cannot change the past. The now is all that you are. Reacting only to what is happening now.
The more you listen, the more you hear. The more you look, the more you see. Quiet your mind, only you can control it. There are written pathways in your brain- wired to think a certain way. Only regular awareness of what it's doing can enable you to change the way your brain goes. You are in control, not your brain. Love is real. Any little thing you do that shows love frees your soul little bit by little bit. The truth will set you free. It hurts sometimes, but it also enables you to let go when it's time to let go. It also shows what is real and what is worth fighting for.