There are so many thoughts that I want to put down. But the thoughts are incomplete, so it is hard to form them into readable paragraphs.

Have you ever been worried that you may be opening a door that should not be opened?  Because there might be a tiger on the other side who will eat you.

I have to be at work in 5 and a half hours, but just because I have to get up early, doesn't mean I can fall asleep just because. I love and hate my job. I love working with people. But, I think I want to do something different. The possibilities are endless, but the means are hard to come by.

I refuse to gather in more debt. Unless it is completely necessary, I wish to get out of debt as soon as possible. Which, will be a couple years. To be rid of my debt in 1 year, I would have to pay $1200 a month.  When I make approximately that much.... It may be more doable than I thought. I just have to not have to pay for anything else. Oh wait. Crap. hah.
Why does everything in life have to revolve around money? If I want to learn how to do something, it costs me money. If I want to go somewhere, it cost me money. If I want to eat, it cost me money. If I want to have shelter, it cost me money. Damnation.

After I got off work today, I changed into some normal clothes and went to the shoe store. It's been pouring snow, and my 3 year old boots have been leaking. I caught the shoe salesman looking at me. "Oh, I was just appreciating how you look, your outfit suits you." I laughed. The black jacket over top a purple turtleneck paired with a knee length black with white polka dot skirt, black tights and knee high boots, yes, I was looking fine. ;) If only he had been 40 years younger.  What can I say, the old guys and the creepy guys love me.

Did I ever tell you about my cult guy? He told me that I'd been reincarnated several times, this is infact my 15th time back. I know, right?! Old soul, here. haha.  I just can't fathom reincarnation. I'm fairly open minded, but I just can't wrap my head around that one. There's been quite a bit about reincarnation in that Yoga of Jesus book I've been reading. I wonder if my beliefs will ever steady out, and I'll know the truth, or if it will always be the search. I have a feeling it is supposed to be the search.

That's it for tonight.
Enjoy the colors and frozen shapes of winter.