Thanksgiving and other thoughts

I went back to the beach for thanksgiving. It was awesome. Why is March so darn far away?
It was really nice having everyone there together, the whole family. It would've only been better had Maggie, Desiree, and the other people we've added to our family could've been there. But as it was, it was pretty perfect. We have so much fun together.

I talked to Ayyoub on the phone twice, which was nice, tuesday nice and thursday night. I've been doing alot of thinking about it. Because that's what I do, over analyse to an extreme. I could fall for him so easily. One, he's so freaking good looking. But he also challenges me to be better than I am. He's so different than me in some ways, so athletic and fun. But so the same in other ways, kind and considerate- chooses to do what's right because it's right.
He's a very magical person, the joy of life just surrounds him. All very attractive qualities.
The problem is, I don't know how he feels about me. He likes me, I think. But, I don't know why. I don't want to pursue if he isn't interested at all. I really have no idea.
He mentioned something the other day, asking me why I tell him that I appreciate him in my life. All I could respond with was "because it's true". It was probably the opportune time for me to tell him that I think he's magical, but at the same time... it seemed too soon. And, I didn't want to have that conversation over the phone. He's down in Miami now, why does he have to be so far away?!
If only I could write to him, but unfortunately his english isn't that great reading and writing, thus me learning french. But it takes a long time to learn a new language!

I watched Meet Joe Black again last night. That movie makes me cry every time. I just identify alot with it.

That's all for now.