It's hard to even know where to start.
I'm going to tell you the story of Justin McRoberts and his influence on my life. It's just one of the many crazy stories in my life.
I don't even really remember how I first heard of Justin McRoberts, it probably was my friend Mike Hale who went to Malone at the time. I think he invited me to go see him, knowing I would appreciate him and his music- and he wanted to introduce me to his new girlfriend. :-)
I waited around after everything was over to talk to Justin. He had totally touched my soul. I'd gotten discouraged with traditional church and modern church- nothing was real anymore it was all just the motions of Christianity- I didn't feel the life of Jesus anywhere. But here was one, this was a guy who was not living in the box, not playing any games- letting God be bigger than the spaces we try to fit Him in. So I told him, I told him how much I'd appreciated it, how I was finding it impossible to find REAL people around here. He assured me that there were these people here, and that I would find them. It was such a refresher for me.
It was soon after that that I was introduced to Love Canton the church community that I was a part of for 2 years. So, the next time Justin came, I told him I had found them. And it was awesome. I don't remember what else we talked about, but I know his songs and stories touched my soul again.
The next time I saw him, I remember crying during one of his songs. It was a song about driving, and letting go. Something I was really struggling with at the time. Letting God be in control. I was deciding what to do with my life at the time.
Then I moved away to the beach.And came back temporarily, and Justin came again the other day, which was awesome, because I leave again in 9 more days. Once again his songs and words directly related to what is going on in my life right now.
His theme that night was connections. Our connections with people and how they matter. How we all have certain people in our lives that our connections with them make a difference. Sometimes if you don't say something as simple as an "I love you" no one will be that person for them.
It totally resonated with me. I've seen how much I've been used in people's lives. I've become more aware that somehow- God makes life paths cross for the mutual benefit of both parties.
The people in my life: with Fred the old man whose wife died who seriously believes I'm an angel (which is crazy because all I have done is followed the Spirit's prompting at seemingly random times to me- but just exactly right times in his life). Fred and his situation has taught me to be more compassionate, and a better realization of what it's like to be old and alone.
Mike and Jen- with their situation of selfishness/selflessness and the cause and effect of horrible decisions. For some reason- for them my being in their lives just to inspire and talk through issues has been exactly what they needed. For me- it's been a time of realizing how much I don't know. Realizing a lack of grace for some issues.
Desiree: I'm not really sure what I've done in her life. I know for some reason she's drawn to the fact that I will take care of her. That I will help her make good choices, and I love her. For her, my home is sanctuary. But then I also know that she doesn't tell me alot because she thinks I'll judge her.
For me- she has taught me to let go. To know that I have no control over other peoples lives, that they have to make their own choices and live with them.
I may see patterns and how choices effect the way life goes, but that doesn't mean I always chose the right path. I have hurt my share of people, I know.
The list just continues...
Basically, the magic continues in my life. God continues with the coincidences, I continue to see patterns and it awes me.
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