Calm

The days are calmer now.
I went out on a date with someone on Match. I think just to try and get over this one, so I picked one that I knew I could be friends with. He had me meet him right by yacht-boy's brothers house. Ironic. It didn't work. Match guy and I will be friends, we have enough in common and enough differences to make it interesting. More than that, as it turns out, he's not over his ex. He's too short for me, and I am not over this boy.
I told yacht-boy. In a plea to understand why it's best. I think he was upset that I went out with someone else, which is nice. The problem I'm having is that I simply don't want anyone else. It makes me feel like a stupid girl who wants someone who doesn't want her.  But he called to talk to me the other night- and the sound of his voice just made me curl up and miss him so much. He's just not at the point in his life that he can focus on a relationship, so he feels like it isn't fair to either of us, and therefore- that is why it's best. Good to know.

Work told me I might not have a job when I come back from visiting Ohio and NC next week. Simply because I didn't ask permission before buying the ticket. Dude. Seriously. My life. I don't have to ask your permission. It's not a holiday week. It's 5 days. I'll be back for Sunday.  So that just reinforces the need to find another job. Who knows. I don't think they'll actually fire me, because they love me, he was just being an ass.  So do I stick it out and go home to NC for the summer?  Do I still try to find a hotel job?

My magic is back. That's good.  It was weird having it gone.