Valentine's Day

Do you know what's funny? I may not have anyone to love just me especially today, but I was given a lot of money today as I worked. "Happy Valentine's Day." they would say.  I was given a kiss on the cheek by a guy that reminds me of my brother- entirely full of shit. And it's been nice. Love abounds.
I've been thinking about the whole being single thing. I'm really okay with it. Not only is it my comfort zone by this point, but, now I know how much havoc dating someone causes in my life. No regrets, but, I like being single. Yes, having someone to snuggle up to is the best thing ever, but.... damn.
I feel like I tried driving for the first time, (everyone else does it, even kids, why can't I?!) So, I drove, but then I got sideswiped and hit the guardrail and flipped. It was nice to have that independence of driving, but the bus is so much safer. :p  Now I'll just live in the moments and love equally and see where that takes me.

I was blindsided by my friends yesterday. I'm not really sure how that happened. I think I know, but the truth has yet to be told to me. Time must pass before it will be revealed I think.  I was informed that I had negative energy and that no one wanted to hangout with me. It was so out of the blue and obviously completely false- there were no words for the shock I felt. I didn't even know how to handle the information except address the one that spoke the words. But, that was hard to come by.
I did eventually, though, briefly. Not touching on the root of the problem, because I felt like resistance was coming from that angle and now was not the time.
Suffice to say, I am ready to go. There is nothing for me here. The question now remains- what to do and where to go?