My unicorn has appeared

Life's a funny thing. The pendulum swing of good days and bad. I have far more good days than bad. I had a rough day about two weeks ago, but since then it just been really good. I've been able to find the time for adventuring, whether it be between shifts, or just in the morning before the night shift if I'm not working. I went out on the boat with the boss' son. We had so much fun, saw so many fish, caught a few, there were dolphins that swam directly under us, there were skate and sting rays and so many fish pods. The water was clear and beautiful, the wind was blowing and not a cloud in the skies. It was perfect.
After he dropped me off, so that I could go to work, he went back out on the water to see what else he could find, catch some more fish. But he told me later, the dozens of fish pods were gone. He didn't see anything else. It had changed.  I laughed and told him I had magical powers. :-P I think he believed me.

Since then I've had some really stressful days at work, but they've been negated by talking to someone on and off throughout the day that makes me smile. I really like him. I've never met him yet. I want to, but right now he lives out in southern California, which is not exactly easy meeting. I've been on the internet long enough to know how easy it is to portray yourself in a certain way, and then when you meet, you realize there was more to the picture than you were told. I have this fear of not being known, so I try to tell everything so that people get an accurate picture of me, but I don't know. I'm scared of developing feelings but only knowing the parts I've been told.
But here's the deal, I will take what I can get, he's brought a bit of magic to my life and that is a wonderful, restful thing. Precisely what I need at this point of my life. And as I have learned, the openness of love without selfish intentions or protecting yourself is a beautiful thing. The chance of hurt is 100% because you leave yourself wide open to another human who is not perfect, but the reward could make it worth while and pain doesn't last forever.

Something I've was thinking about- things that have affected me negatively in my life, my dad almost committing suicide... the situations that made for the move from Ohio to here the first time, even the recent catalysts from south florida. I remember that they were bad, and rocked my world. But the feelings, they aren't there. Which is interesting. I have never been one to hold grudges- I want things resolved immediately,  but there are people in my family with long memories, so I know what that's like. I just don't. So that's been interesting to think about.