What does God say?

Sometimes I freak out in my mind. You'd never know it talking to me, or looking at me. But inside there is a massive freak out happening.
Today's was spawned by a woman who came into my work. She was my boss' girlfriend when they were in jr high, they're now 40. Both are married.  Anyway, he gave her a hug, hasn't seen her in eons, but what she took from that- was that feelings were still there. She thinks he's just as sexy as ever. But not only that, thinks that God made her come in there today, that this was His design.  Right time, right place.
Wait, what?! They're both married, him happily so, apparently not her.  So, what she's thinking God's plan is, is not based on reality at all.

So, my freak out is spawned, and I'm sure you understand why.  My whole entire life currently is based on doing things that I believe that I have been guided to by the supernatural moving of the hand of God, the weaving of this magical tapestry called my life.  So the freak out ensues.
"You're just as crazy as she is. You're living your whole life based on nothing but magical fantasy. Where is the reality in your own life? Look at the cold hard facts.
You stay in love with someone who doesn't love you anymore.
You work at a job that doesn't pay very much and you work your life away doing nothing.
You live in Louisiana away from all friends and family.
And for what?"But then the calm, rational side of me kicks in to answer these questions.
"Okay, what are you really afraid of? What is literally the worst that could happen?
You love a memory, and don't ever find anyone else who will actually love you.
You don't make enough money to pay the bills.
Family and friends live on without needing you anymore. "
Those are the things I'm really afraid of.  But those are based on lies. Those are based on worst case scenarios.
Thing is, I loved and lost, and that is better than never having had. The pain is a different sort, but just as aching. Will that ever be healed? Unknown. But it's not something I fight for anymore. I don't need to find love, I don't need to experience that. I did. And now it's time to just continue on.
I do make enough money to pay the bills. And if I don't, something will come up. It always does.
My family and friends, do live on without me. But I am not obsolete. I will never be obsolete unless I withdraw myself.
My life based on faith that God is working magically in my life? That everything will come together, that my story has a happy ending?
There is no way this doesn't happen. The magic may not be what I think it will be, but happiness is a choice. Finding magic when things look bleak, loving despite all reasons not to, this is where my happily ever after will be. In the love and magic that I find on a day to day basis.