"can I call you in a few?" "sure," I respond. "Can we talk about sex?" I pause. I don't know him. Why would we talk about that on our first conversation, does he want to know me, or is he just interested in phone sex?
I respond carefully. "That is a curious question."
He calls, we talk for quite awhile, we have similar backgrounds and similar outlooks on life. Except- he keeps bringing the conversation back to sex. I can tell where it's heading. He wants to have phone sex, and play a game of imagination.
Why. It's not real. You've never met me. How is this behavior okay?
I give him the benefit of the doubt, and agree to meet him for lunch today.
I have my guard up the whole time. I can tell by the end he's gotten tired of trying to push through. Maybe if he was more attractive I would have let him, but I'm not that attracted to him, and the obsession with wanting to know what color underwear I was wearing, and other steps in the off color was a bit too far down the path of crazy for me.
I appreciate that he thought I was attractive. But, on the flip side- please try to know my soul first. I need that to be the thing that initially attracts.
Why does it have to be so hard? And why do I keep trying?
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