what is wrong

 I have been out on two dates lately. Just meet ups to see if there is a connection. 

The first one did not look like his pictures, and kept trying to turn the conversation to adult topics. He also kept looking at me like he just wanted me out of my clothes. I can appreciate that for what it is, but not on the first meeting. I need you to be interested in who I am and what I stand for. 

The second one also did not look like his pictures, but not in a bad way. This one I was super excited to meet because like me, he's well traveled. He's worked at restaurants seasonally the majority of his life, and is now in school for horticulture and is a groundskeeper at a golf course.  So, it seemed that we would have alot in common, and he seemed to think about things too.  So, we met and talked. He told me so many stories of his life...but did not ask about me and mine. The moment I realized that a seed of doubt was placed in my head.  But, we walked and talked for about 4 hours, which is a considerable time. So, I thought that maybe I was wrong. "Let's do this again" was said by him as we left, but then I never heard from him again.  And so another one for the rejected pile. 

I seriously don't know what it is about me. What is wrong with me that the ones that I have anything in common with don't want me, but the others that won't do anything for me spiritually or mentally are the ones that like me. 

There is just such a disconnect.