what to do

 I have no idea what to do. 

A job offer back in NC where I never thought I would live again. Full benefits, and potentially more money than I've ever made. Likely not having to work more than 50 hours a week... still getting two days off. 

The part of me that balks at the idea just screams what about your dreams? The book, the lifecoaching business... and then the other part of me acknowledges that there hasn't been much progress on those lines here anyhow. 

How am I going to move all of my stuff? I went to get some of my things from storage, so now I have too much stuff. Plus the paddleboard that I bought while living here.  

I just looked up how much it would be to rent a van. $70. I can do that. Gas won't be fun, but, it shouldn't be horrific.  I guess we'll see. 

I don't know. I just don't know. My life at this point has been consumed with figuring out my book, and how and where I'm going to write it.