the things

 It's been more than a month since I last wrote, and it's been very full. 

My father is not speaking to me. Due to drama with my siblings. It is unacceptable, but in a way, I'm too tired to do anything about it. 

I went to western nc for research for my book. It was awesome. I need to go back for more, because I didn't quite get everything that I need.  

I've been missing Heath something fierce lately. Probably not him exactly, but, he was the person that I talked to about everything.

I don't even know. Apparently today is speaking things into existence day.  When I first starting writing this post I was thinking about this life coach guy I started following on FB a little over a month ago. How it was shitty that he never responded to my last message, and then I posted a response on one of his posts the other day and he didn't even react to it, and he reacts to everyone. I realized that since I don't actually know him, maybe I should get the point and unfriend him. So I went on FB to do just that, and in that very moment he reacted to my post. Coincidental timing. 

And then, I was writing about missing Heath, and he called.  I cried.  I haven't spoken to him in more than a month, and before that, it had been a few months.  

He's 33 days sober. He's taken care of all the things looming over him, court stuff, health stuff, he's exercising every day, he's getting up early and going to bed early. He has energy and life. He isn't trying to be an active part of my life right now because he needs to know that he can do this on his own. I am so proud of him. Like I just sobbed so proud of him. I knew it was there. I knew he could do it.  I'm so relieved on so many levels. I'm glad I don't need to worry about him, because that's always been a halfway thought in my brain. I'm glad I wasn't wrong about him. I'm glad when I said that I saw his soul that I was right.  I'm glad that he had the strength of character to do it. I knew it, but I was so scared. 

What does that mean for us? I think it means that we'll be able to stay friends forever.