overthinking

Because that's what I do. Because I don't trust. Because I can't. 

Things are very slowly moving in a direction with Heath. He told me yesterday morning that once he gets himself together, he sees us together, but he feels bad asking me to wait. 

Sometimes I wish someone else would sweep me away, someone who wasn't afraid to love me, and wanted to be with me 100%. This whole "almost" shit is for the birds. I know he loves me. That is evident. But, I don't know that it's enough.  And even if it were, would I be happy? Would he be the man I need him to be? 

Right now he's like a drug. I get on such a high after talking to him, and I get so low when I don't. I try to rationalize and even out the flow, but even still, it's like the tide.