darkness breaks

 Saturday night I had called Heath because I was in a situation and didn't know how to get out. I just felt like I needed him to save me. He didn't answer though, and I got home and dealt more with the guy. Heath did try to call me back a little while later, but I was immersed in conversation at that point and couldn't answer, and when I tried to call him back later on, he didn't answer again.  I sent him a few texts during the week, because for some reason, two other people had gone out of their way to be unkind to me. Unfortunately, I can't be everything to everyone, but calling me self centered and a fake and a fraud is way out of line.  That being said, Heath finally called me Friday night, drunker than drunk- hiccupping even. He was embarrassed, and got of the phone, but called me again like 2 hours later when he was manageable.  We talked for hours about everything, even came up with some storylines, just because.  I told him the situation with the contractor and how scary/dangerous it had gotten. And, how I was supposed to meet with him later on in the day. Well, that freaked him out, and he got so protective of me. It was adorable and wonderful. It was as though I could finally rest, I didn't have to hold it all together, because he was there for me.  We didn't get off the phone until like noon.  But, he checked on me all afternoon. When everything was resolved by around 5 though, I could tell he'd retreated, and honestly, my heart hurt a little bit. But I treasured the night/day with him.  But then he called again at 1, and I went over to his house after a few hours on the phone talking about everything. It was straight magic for my soul.  It was probably the tenderest I've ever been treated, the realest and most true conversation all night. 

It was literally a gift of magic from the Father. If I had had to continue to live with harsh darkness and violence of the the contractor, my magic would have been damaged, but this was like proof for me to effectively blossom instead of retreat.  I am so beyond grateful.