3 years. I'm not sure how it's been that long, but at the same time, how has it ONLY been 3 years?
Ups and downs, moments that my heart felt like it was soaring among the clouds, moments that I believed that everything was right in the world but there have also been the moments where I was broken and wondering how to continue on. Is that what love is, weathering the highs and the lows? Choosing love no matter what? I know it's not supposed to be this hard. I know my heart chose someone who does not love in the same manner as I do. But, as much as I try, and try to talk myself into giving up- I still haven't. I wonder if that day is coming. It feels so close.
I think my premonition wasn't wrong. I'll know more by this weekend, but he's been back for a few days and I still haven't seen him. Today is the anniversary of our meeting, and we're supposed to have plans, but I think it's not going to happen.
My anxiety level is through the roof.
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