life

 Everything has finally started coming together. Book sales have been limited this month, but I've gotten some good reviews, got it put in another bookstore. I have a meeting with a client tomorrow morning because he read my book, so that's a positive as well. 

I've been dog sitting/walking for extra money, and have gotten a job bartending at a Sheraton. It's not been too bad. Moved into an apartment this past week, thank goodness. Still waiting to get it fully put together, but it's getting there. 

H has been hit and miss as always, but it sounds like he'll be living with me when he comes home. He says he misses me and that I'm his ride or die. I don't know. I hope so. But he's quiet again. I don't know. I hate that he's always hot and cold. I miss him so desperately, and I want us to work out, but I just don't have that faith. I have the hope, but not the trust.