Question Mark

When I see Life, usually it's dressed as a question mark and trying to haunt me. It thinks I'm scared of question marks, and it might be right.
There are no certainties in my life. Whenever I think there are, they don't end up staying certain. While this can be freeing, it's also paralyzing.
Someone said last night that God knows what he created us to be, our potential. When we don't fulfill said potential, we are in effect saying that His plan wasn't right. We can't or we just won't.  I think that's complete BS. You can't look at things as failing. When you intentionally do something wrong, have guilt, that's good. But when you don't intentionally do something wrong, and you find out later that it wasn't the best move to have made. Don't feel guilty!!! The choices we make = the path we're on. Those choices and the circumstances of our life are what define us. No two people have the same path. You can't be "right" because you hit that speed bump before I did and learned from it. Maybe I won't ever hit that speed bump. There are so many factors that play into where a speed bump will fall on our life path. They're just learning methods.
Maybe my path has more trees overshadowing it, and yours has more flowering meadows. But, maybe my trees are what I need in my life and you need the wide open spaces.
Every so often we encounter another human on a path, sometimes it crosses over ours, so for a brief moment we're on equal footing. It's at that point when you decide whether or not your paths have the ability of merging- at least to the extent of walking parallel with eachother.  Our best friends their paths run parallel for a time, but sometimes they have to climb a mountain or walk in the sand while we have to cross a river.

Don't feel guilty about the path heretofor. It has made you who you are today. It's the next choice you make that you have control over, do with it whatever seems right.


I have been sick for a solid week now. I'm tired of it. It's a progressive sickness, so it just goes from one symptom to the next to the next. I've had laryngitis pretty bad the last 3 days now. Today it seems to be better. I'm actually excessively thrilled with homeopathic remedies this time around. I started off with my usual base of echinacea and goldenseal to boost my immune system, but whatever virus had stuck me, it was too late for those to do much good. I took ibuprofen for my headache, fever and all around pain. So that was the one traditional drug I took. I developed a sore throat with pain all the way up to my ears, so I started taking poke weed. This cleared it up within 2 days. I thought everything was on its way out when the laryngitis struck, I started taking causticum to see what that would do for it. This was yesterday, today my voice is much better and I'm thinking tomorrow it will be fine. I did enjoy testing out stuff I'd never even heard of before and them working. I do want to take classes on this. It's hard to learn on my own.

We are moving houses soon. My brother is in the process of buying a house about 15 min north of us. I don't really know how it will work. it's just a bizarre house, it has a great outdoors, but the interior... I just don't know. Good thing- not my house. ha. I'm not sure how long I'll live with my brother. It's cheaper, for sure, but- it's not a realistic area to live for what I'm doing and where. So, we'll see.

I must find some food- I'm off.