What happens when you have a dream? A dream that motivates and inspires. A dream that seems to come from God because of several different confirmations.
I've hit that point where I have to say "What in the world am I thinking? There's no possible way this can work out, it's way too complicated."
I decided to go to college, only 8 years after I graduated highschool. Problems: they want a highschool transcript, which I never made back in the day. Or a GED result, which I never took. Solutions, either wing the transcript, or take the GED.
Other problems with this idea: When am I going to have the time to go to school?! When I'm not working, I'm working on the farm, working on housework, or spending quality time with family and friends. Since I'm planning on moving out, I'll be shelling out that much more cash a month which means I'll need a second job, which also means less time. What the hell am I thinking? How is this going to work?
I have no idea. I feel like I'm in an unmanned airplane with no flying skills.
I start to question, does God actually want me to follow this life path, or is it all in my head? Would I be just as content with my life if I did nothing and left life the way it is, or followed a less globally aware path? I feel like I'd be shirking in my duty to become all that I was made to become.
I just don't know.
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