I've been doing alot of thinking. I know this is not unusual for me, but I've been made aware of a certain thing. There are life altering moments.
If I hadn't brought my friend Rachel and her family to a church near me when they visited (because I knew it was something they would appreciate)- Rachel would've never met and married (and divorced) Matt. Such a little thing...
If I had realized by my not being involved (out of just stubbornness) in my friend Desiree's church and/or making the time to try and meet her current fiance. Chances are, things wouldn't've progressed to where they stand now. She is pregnant and engaged because of said pregnancy.
Both situations I realize are direct results of their own choices, however, the moments in time where I play a part in their lives to set a course... craziness.
I am well aware that I do not control people's lives. But, like I was telling my friend Mike today, when he was telling me not to make a poor life decision... (Do I ever?!) It's not that I just am good. It's that I see the consequences both to myself and to all involved directly or indirectly and I just cannot. And, I see these consequences in other people's lives too, and I just want to help. Even though I can't.
I think it's like being a parent. You know better than your kid because you were also a kid once, but then sometimes you've just got to let them do their thing regardless of consequences.
I don't want to control... I can't anyway. Bah.
So that's what I'm thinking about today. Now it's time to stop thinking and just go to work. Be at peace.
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