There's nothing better than a porch day. The sun shining, the breeze rustling the trees. The bird feeder I put on the tree in front of the house has been a hit with the birds around town. I have to fill it every 2-3 days. I have flowers blooming, and that makes me happy. Danette gave me back the planters I gave her when I left to go to Florida, and the banana tree is making a comeback, so that's good.
Danette is moving back home to Henderson. Things are not fixed between her and Kenneth, but they cannot afford to have her living on her own anymore. I can't even tell you how ironic I find it, that this happens on Easter.... and april fools day. haaaaaa.
Easter, because good friday is a picture of the day hope died. All seemed lost. Sometimes those days of lost hope last for way longer than the 3 days. But the day of resurrection, the day the miracle of all miracles... hope is restored, faith found a way. Everything changes. The one who IS love, conquers even death.
I pray that restoration finally finds them. That they can start fresh.
And April fools, because, I mean, seriously, realistically, without both of them going into this with a heart of love, how can this work?
And my life. I'm ever lost. The one I love(d) continues to haunt my dreams and waking moments. It didn't help getting to talk to his brother last week. I miss him. I wish I could help him. I know that I can't.
Work is giving me incredible anxiety and I don't know which move to make. I don't know how to live.
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