There is much going on in my life right now, but my unicorn has a way of invading my thoughts. I'll think of something he's said and I'll just be smiling to myself and people will ask why I'm smiling. "Oh nothing," I respond. They don't need to know.
I knew shortly in to communication that I really liked this guy. There was just that bit of magic. It's been 4 or 5 months of talking now, and damn. I am dying to see him in person, show him all of my magical spots around here- the clear starry nights up on the dunes.... the wind and sun and the waves. And mostly I really really just want to hug him- and see the magic that that will bring. We have this connection of the souls that has been lacking in my past, so I really can't wait to see what comes of it.
He does nothing without consideration though, carefully and thoroughly. He has just recently broken out of his more stoic nature and admitted that he likes me. Not in as many words, but it's there. The dear heart need not be afraid. I would hold his heart so carefully as long as he took my own with the same care, and I know he would. His experience has only made him fear being trampled on, so he is careful. But when he finally knows, finally can trust, it's going to be amazing. The wait is good, it forces me to be sure, to make certain that I am careful with his heart. To hold back when I know I should, and to say what's on my heart so that he realizes there is nothing to fear with me.
He is probably going to Costa Rica in the next little while, which is not in the direction I had planned for my next step. But such is the funny thing about life, it never goes according to plan. If he wanted me to, I would follow him in a heartbeat, and after an adventure there, maybe he'd like to travel the world with me. But, see, my reason for traveling the world is merely to experience life, to broaden my perspectives, to see what there is to see and to meet and experience different cultures. I am not bound to any place in particular, that's why I never set a time frame on my adventure. There was no end date. So now is the time I'm just waiting to see how the future unfolds.
Things down in Florida have gotten rushed to an end. My court date for the bankruptcy is Aug the 10th, so I'm going to fly down there the 9th-11th. My friend that I stayed with will probably be out of town, but she told me I could have her house and truck again, so that's amazing. It was so nice to sleep on my nice big bed again. I'll be spending my extra time down there cleaning out the apartment- I have nothing to bring back with me, just things to throw away ( the used furniture that I was given) and I have heard that the apartment is trashed- especially the couch. I'll have to figure out some people to enlist in helping me remove the big stuff out of there.
Things here are steadily the same. The drama of the children, things are pretty smooth though, but will be hectic upon my return from Florida because that is the same week that most of my children leave for college. I would like to do something with them all for a final hurrah- thanks for working here and doing a good job, but I'm not sure how to pull that off or what to do.
We'll see.
Pura Vida
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