Tests and Patience

When I was a kid in school, unless it was geography or history, I cared little for it. I would study enough to get by and so long as I got a B (sometimes a C) I was okay with it. The point was always to get to the tests so that the next step could be achieved, and if it was taking too long to get to the next step, skipping ahead to peak at the tests- look to see what you don't know and go back study that part and then take the test for real. Or, just BS through the test completely and hope for the best.

The funny thing about life, it has a habit of repeating. Waiting to do something has never been a strong suit of mine. Let's just do it, and see what happens. Actually that's not entirely true. I waited for a certain thing until I was almost 29. But that was because the alternative was not right, and I value what is right. But in most cases, my response is, "let's try it and see!" because you hold yourself back for fear of what could happen. What could happen is not important. What is happening in the moment is. The moment is all that we have, our futures are unwritten. Paths cross for moments in time before the forces of the universe pull their paths in different directions. Only certain ones can walk the same paths at the same time. But it's like real life walking down a path, you don't exist in the exact same time and space as the other person you're walking with. The way might be narrow, so one is in front -the other behind. Or the way is wide and you can hold one anothers hand. But then one trips, but the other is there still holding your hand and you can laugh about the path tripping you.

I might take some time to make decisions, to feel out which way the universe seems to say go, or stay or do. But when I know, and I decide- then the waiting is over and I want to comply and go and do.
It's already July. Crazy. I'll be 30 in almost exactly 3 months. And then embark on my journey 6 weeks later. The more I think about it, the more I want to go, but I don't know if I have everything I'll need. I have no idea what to expect. I have no idea how everything will work out. I know that it will, but I have no idea how.  But, right now? I have everything I need right now. A family who loves me, a bed to sleep in, jobs that need me, a dose of magic in my life from across the country. And now I wait for life to continue unfolding.