Revelations

It's funny the things that you discover about yourself when you're not even trying. Things that come to light and you don't like them so you have to change immediately.

I am a chameleon. I always have been. You learn to adapt, to live in any situation, to endure any circumstances good or bad. I also have learned to be whoever the people around me need me to be. This is why I am able to be friends with any one. I have all types of friends. Religious, and not. Mafia or the cops. Republicans and anarchists. 
These people as a whole, see me as someone who is quiet, loving, good natured, and unjudgmental. They typically don't know how strenuously I disagree with some things that are important to them, because I let it go. Live and let live. But unfortunately, this creates an illusion- and I get frustrated that no one actually knows who I am. In fact, this is my fault. I haven't allowed them to see the fullness of who I am, but merely the part of me that meshes with them.  This is especially true when it comes to guys. I don't care for division. I hate unnecessary conflict. So, a lot of the time, I choose to just let things slide, until they think they're in love with me and I know that they don't know the half of it.
And so this must change. It is dishonest and unhealthy. And that is not who I want to be.