On Jesus and life

I was thinking this morning as I lay halfway between waking and sleeping about what it means to be a Christian.  How it's been taught wrong for eons.
When you become a Christian, most times you acknowledge your need of a savior, and you change your life to suit His will.
Why do you need a savior? To bridge the gap between human and God. Was there ever a gap? I doubt it. But, with the knowledge that came, and the banishment from the physical presence of God in the garden- came the idea of separation. God never left, but they felt abandoned because they couldn't see him, and knew they'd done wrong.
Now, here we are, however many years later- and we are still being taught that we are cut off from God. Jesus showed us the opposite though. Through him we have access to God, we have access to the power of God.  When we become a follower of Christ, we no longer live, but God within us. The sins we have, the fears, the guilt, the anxiety and stress- all those can fade away. The power of Jesus dying- taking on the sins of the world, - letting him experience all things that haunt us and defeating them, gives us the same power.
I don't have the power to heal, God does.
I don't have the power to love, even after being hurt. God does.
I don't have the power to have faith, when I don't see a solution, but God does.
I don't have the power to help,
I don't have the power to provide hope,
I don't have the power to rescue anyone,
I don't have the power. God does.
When I relinquish control, when I stop TRYING. Suddenly, the door is open for the power of God. Use me, give me the words, give me the faith. It's all there. Yet somehow we still try to do everything ourselves.
The one I love most in the world, he struggles with it more than anyone else I've ever known. Because he wants to be one with God. But, he keeps trying and it is not in his own power. He is under the impression that things and people can stand in his way of being one with the Father. But that is impossible.
The truth of the story in the Matrix of "There is no spoon" is profound. We're trying to bend things to make them do what we want- to make us be that thing we want to be. But it's not the way. The way is simply to BE, be love, and you will be one with the Father. Let all actions and words flow from that consciousness and you will never feel far from Him.