ever lost

I had crazy dreams last night.
The first dream the only part I remember was an altercation with a man who was trying to get the better of me. It was like a deal of some sort, he would allow me to  ??? I don't remember. But in return, he would have free access to all of my stuff. That was never going to happen, and when I refused to back down to him, he pushed me over onto a bed and continued to try to break me by rape.
I didn't back down. And I was aware enough at that point to change the dream.
Why would I dream something so terrible?

The next dream I was being chased by men with machine guns. The weapon I had didn't work, so I had to out wit them. Which  I did by going into a meeting room, and pretending I had been there all along. Having to rely on the others in the room not to rat me out.

Strange dreams.


Time is drawing to a close. 2 more weeks of work.
I'm worried about work. I'm worried about taxes at the end of the year, since pretty much everything was under the table this year.
I'm concerned about finding work when I get down there. I'm concerned about finding a place to live. I'm wondering if it's the right move to make. 

Ever lost.