steady as she goes

I have regained my equilibrium.
Am I still vacant? Yes, but not in a hurt sense. So, remember how my heart is like a beach bungalow? Well, I've adjusted to living alone again.
Do I miss him? I still think about him every day, so that answers that question. It's not the same as before with the ache and feeling of loss.
The other day God "told" me, that Micah had not learned self sufficiency yet, that was why it was important for him not to need me in his life. That he wouldn't learn to depend on himself/God with me there. When someone has to learn how to love themselves, the path of life is much different that the path of the ones like me who already do, perhaps too much.
But, I mean, there are moments that I still just ache, I'm not going to lie. I do get over it quickly.
I just work, and now I'm planning my adventures... I think I have about everything I'm going to need for my trip. Just have to work on international money, and international cellphone usage. I leave in 3 weeks for my 83 hour roadtrip around the states... it's going to be sketchy at best in my car, but we're going to wing it. I can't wait for Florida beaches. I want to swim! :)
There are so many friends to visit along the way. It's going to be awesome.