over reaction

I tend to over react to things.
I'm definitely done as far as remaining in love goes. That's over. It's as though my heart and soul have shut off.
The over reaction comes in to play because he still has a Spanish cd I accidently left in a book, as well as the books. He's never going to read them, so I was inclined to just tell him to leave my stuff that he has, along with the pictures and stuff I left for him and I dispose of them for him, if he hadn't made himself do it yet. I'd pick them up from his dad's house as I passed through on my way to Colorado from Florida in May.
I had already planned on that route since it's supposed to be around his birthday. It'd been the plan since I left that I would surprise him from his birthday, since when we first started talking it had been the initial plan to spend his birthday with him.  But now that's off the table.
But, the thing is, that it is an over reaction. He'll throw them out when he's ready, if he hasn't already.  The books are a bummer, because I like them. But, oh well.

Now it's just the daily grind of work.
One day I'll learn how to love in the moments, instead of in a forever kind of way. But until then, I've turned my heart off.