Larry

I went to see Larry at the after school kids program yesterday. We talked for hours. He's super excited about working with Micah. But then he started giving me shit about him, so I had to tell him how I met him, and the current status of things. He's under the impression that there's no way anyone could stay mad at me, and that we should just hug it out. But if physical touch currently hurts him, that is impossible.  Larry wasn't nearly as suggestive as last time. I'm glad. I was kinda worried about going there yesterday because of that. But, I'll be gone the next couple weeks, so I figured I should say bye.
The conversation was mainly about relationships. His experiences, and things he's learned. It was good. There are things about him that I really like, but there's others that just blare "No."  The no's out weigh the attractive qualities.  He definitely likes to push the boundaries. He started texting me last night like he always does after he sees me. I had to ignore/laugh off a few things, and divert the conversation. I can't play that game. It's dangerous and heads us in a direction I'm not okay with.  It's not my fault I give good hugs. hahaha. He said I make a person feel completely wrapped up and cared for. That I have a magical touch.
Micah said something similar. Come to think of it, they've all said it. Ayyoub blamed me for us doing it. haha. It's not my fault. We were just laying there on the couch watching tv and I'd just rub his arm. I didn't know that I had a touch that could start things at that point.  Oh well.

On another note, one of my regulars asked me out to dinner last night. I had to tell him that I would always be his friend, but my heart is occupied. He was a bit hurt. But damn, son, I don't just go around talking about the status of my heart! Especially to guys. He's like 50, kind soul, but we have nothing in common.

I just don't want to be in a relationship anymore. Been there, done that. It's too hard. Leave me alone. All of yall. :)