overwhelming

My brother and my dad decided to have it out, which caused my dad to reach out to the rest of us. Which caused even more damage. Huge amount of drama.  I was strangely unaffected by it though. I mean, it was there, but not wreaking havoc like it normally would've. I think it was the knowledge that it was all outside my control, and that I've blocked off that part of my heart after his suicide attempt.
I don't know.

I spent a few hours with Larry yesterday, helping with doing inventory. He was, very suggestive. I had to retreat a few times, because it was getting to a boundary line. He texted me later, asking what would happen if he kissed me. Sigh. And also, he asked why I didn't really look at him. Um, because it was too dangerous. I could tell he was in that mood and the slightest bit of encouragement on my part would lead to something that I was not okay with.  Because fact of the matter is, I'm not okay with it. I don't mind the hugs, I sometimes just really need a hug in my life. But anything more than that, I'm not okay with. And, the other thing is, I know he just wants in my pants. Because he knows next to nothing about me, doesn't ask me about who I am. When I am sharing something, he'll add to it, instead of letting me finish, or get distracted by something else. To top that, he only texts me after he's seen me, because, he thinks I'm sexy and have a magical touch.  So- there is nothing real there, it's just play and superficial, and that is a game I don't get serious about.

I asked him if he had listened to Micah's music, he had. Said he has a very original sound, and he'd be very interested in meeting him the next time he's down here.  I had to tell him that I don't talk to him anymore, so, a little of the story had to come out. I seriously cannot tell that story to people- it's too private. The only people that know are people that would understand the working of God in our lives. I can't tell anyone that would think poorly of him. I love him too much for that.
So, I told Micah's dad about what Larry said, and he said that he would pass along the information to Micah. And so the story goes.