These last couple of days I've been strangely just dissatisfied. An empty, restless feeling. Not that nothing is happening, obviously things happen, not necessarily magical things, but things. What I think is missing, and where the dissatisfaction is coming from- my mind and soul have not been stretched lately. I haven't learned anything new. I haven't had an mindbending conversations. I don't do well with that. Why am I sitting and atrophying when I could be growing? I don't know that it's a bad thing, sitting still, being patient, all qualities unnatural to my life. That's why I move, that why there's always the next best thing since sliced bread.
I listened to all of Brennan Manning's sermons over and over again on Youtube. I've read all his books. What's the next thing to challenge my thoughts? What is the next thing that will cause me to grow? When will the next magical thing happen?
I miss the iron sharpening of iron. I miss being wrong about things. I miss finding out that I didn't think about all sides of an issue or problem.
The picture leaning up against the wall, ready to be mailed out- is taunting me. "There is always hope."
Wait for it.....
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