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I haven't managed to go to the gym yet since being back. It's not that I wake up late, I've just been so tired. Getting back into the routine of working, and it hasn't been easy. It's been kinda busy, and not only that, but Michael, has gotten another job, so it's just me and YoaLing. It's not easy.  Last night I had 3 tables walk in after 8:30- we close at 9. I didn't end up leaving until nearly 10, and I'm just exhausted.  I wanted to cry last night for no other reason then I just wanted a hug. There's no better feeling than being wrapped up in the arms of someone who loves you. But it is not to be. So, I tried to de-stress by watching tv, maybe made it through 20 minutes before just being annoyed and turning it off.
I don't like how out of sorts I feel. I don't like that all I want is to be held close, and told that everything's going to be alright. Because everything is alright. There's no reason to stress about work. It is what it is, and we'll make it through. There's no reason to stress about the guys in my life, because they aren't really there- and it's unknowable. There's no reason to feel alone, there are people here that love me, people that missed me.
Maybe it's the normal coming down, after 2 weeks of family and old friends.

I'm just tired. and stressed. And I don't want to go to work, because I know it will be stressful. That's a bad thing.  So I'm going to go to the bank, and work my way over there. Maybe I'll bring a book from the 6 boxes I brought home with me from Ohio. My lovely lovely books. That is happiness right there.

And on the story goes.