fire

There's been such an influx of the subject of sex. It's so rampant in society, everyone in relationships, the cheating that become such a normal part of culture, all of the songs addressing it. Women in lingerie, men with their 6 packs and tattoos.  Things that appeal to our pleasure centers.
The question of celibacy until marriage, the guilt when that is broken.
What is right, what is real? What are we looking for really?

Obviously, I don't know the answers to all these things. I don't know. But some things I do know.  There is way too much emphasis placed on sex and relationships. If you're not in a relationship, if you don't have sex, there's something wrong with you. If you do have sex, outside of marriage, you're a skank. How can this be true? What is real?
Our bodies are designed to crave intimacy. Our minds and souls crave intimacy on a different level.  In a marriage, the body, mind and soul are combined "they become one".  As a society we've divorced all that, we've taken the mind and soul away with the term "it's just sex".  I knew when I slept with the guys before Micah, that it was "just sex".  With him, it was different, he knew all of me, and I knew all of him. And he loved me completely, and vice versa. Body, mind and soul, we were in tune.
Now that he has sent me away, I am lost, waiting. After you become one with another person, how do you move on?  Like I said in my previous post- my body craves a man, but my head and soul say no.
I know now that I can't sleep with someone just for pleasure, love- complete and total, has to be there.
I know for me, the body is weak... it wants what it wants, and turning me on is as simple as a word or a touch. It's playing with fire.