Today was one of those days. I don't want to be here. I don't want this job. I don't want to be nagged by my family. I don't want to be told to move on. Leave me the hell alone. I'm doing my best.
I love my family. But there are days when I just can't handle them. 3 of them, one each day for the past 3 days, telling me that I should start going on dates to get over Micah. That there's a perfect guy out there for me.
I don't care. I am over him as much as I can be at this point. I love him unendingly. I know it's not going anywhere, and that's okay. If someone else comes along that is more magical than him, great. I'm not expecting it. I waited 30 years for this one. Maybe in 30 more years another will come along. Leave me alone so I can be happy by myself. So I can grow old and not want companionship. Why can't I be the independent old woman who needs no one?
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God damn it all.
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