today the universe wins

And I am going back to bed.  I know, universe. I know. But I can't cope with all the reminders today. Not cool. I don't appreciate it at all.
I looked at the date when I was writing that post earlier today, and saw that it was a month ago today that I was snuggling with the one I love for the last time. I know, universe, and it hurts.
So, I proceed with my day. I leave to go pick up my paycheck and the only song playing on 9 stations in "I'm gonna stand by you". I turn off the radio.
I decide to go watch a movie by myself. Deadpool came out today, so I'll go see that.  I couldn't help but be reminded of him throughout the movie. The love story was similar- "our crazy fits together like a jigsaw puzzle, together you see the big picture."
I drove home in the pouring snow- I hadn't been in the pouring snow since Colorado, when I walked to get the boy some coffee before I woke him up one morning. And I just want to go play in the snow, but I can't because I achingly miss him too much. He's the one I want to play in the snow with. The huge flakes have started piling up on the trees, and they look beautiful. He and I love snow on trees.
I turned the radio back on. Why is that damn song playing again? "I'm gonna stand by you, even if we can't find heaven, I'd walk through hell with you..."
The next song, "same bed, just feels a little bit bigger now.... our song on the radio but it doesn't sound the same"
the next song was something similar. I just can't. So now I'm going back to bed. Stop beating on my walls, universe. You're making me hurt.