progression

It's really interesting, my life.

I've been learning a lot. And, it's been really fun.  But, not only that, I've been able to share it with several people, and it's exciting to see how much it ignites them also.

So, I've been doing actually really well ever since, really, 2 weeks ago. I have been able to let go of the loss that I felt. I've been able to let go of plans for the future. I've been able to accept the moments for what they are. And, it's been really good.
Last night I cried though. It was totally out of the blue. It wasn't like a sobbing cry- just tears started flowing and I couldn't stop them. I can't even describe the emotion that came with it. It wasn't a wish for a change of anything, it wasn't pain. It was kindof just numbness. No, it was emptiness. I felt empty.   So that was weird.  God damn it all. I despise being a girl sometimes.  Today I've been mostly okay, just a bit on the raw side. Things at work bothering me a bit more than normal.  So I went to watch the sunset. That helped a little. I can't wait for it to be warm. I miss being warm.
I miss hugs.