The gap in the walls grew this afternoon. And when I said I love you too, there were the normal feelings. It's was a normal conversation, full of laughter, and random chats about things- and lasted almost 2 hours. I was the one to say goodbye, so that he wouldn't have to. I can put up the walls to protect myself, but what lies behind, and gets through the gaps is ever the same. Despite the pain he has caused, I do love him truly. I want what's best for him, and I know that right now, that isn't me, so I have to have walls.
The funny thing about gaps, they let in hope. Hope for life beyond pain. Who knows where life will lead, and how my path will take me. I know the walls are only temporary to get me through the worst of it. Nothing last forever- except love, that always wins out. Maybe not how we initially envision, but in the end, it does. It makes life worth living.
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