So, I've been to the beach several times since being back. I've tried taking some pictures, to show off my sea, but they've turned out uninspired. I've tried taking some selfies, to promote joy. But, I just look wrecked. The dark circles under my eyes from lack of sleep.... the smile is too fake. I've gotten used to wearing the baseball cap for work, and I appreciate the disguise it affords.
I am finding in myself a lack of hope. 16 weeks of work won't be quite enough saved for a trip to Europe, at least not to the extent I wanted it to be. Now I'll have to rethink things. I sure as hell, refuse to be stuck here in north Carolina for another summer season. I won't do it. I don't know what to do. I need to figure out a way to make money on the road.
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