staycations

I bought myself a hotel room for the night, at a nice place with what appears to be an incredible pool and hot tub. I have to work this evening, but I should be able to spend a nice amount of time there between this afternoon and tomorrow before check out. I just need some me time. It sounds incredibly selfish, but, the thing is, I just need to recharge. I need sun and water.
I could use a friend or two with stimulating mind sharpening conversation too, but that's out of my control. I'm just so tired. It's been a rough few days at work.  I get home, my feet are throbbing, but I have to take a shower because I've had to spend so much time in the kitchen cooking while I'm trying to wait tables that I smell like the kitchen and feel sticky. There was no break yesterday- worked a full 12 hours. Towards the end I was starting to get so cranky. It was my period day- and Michael was at his other job, I didn't get a break to recharge- people kept coming in close to closing time- and ended up staying until nearly an hour after we closed.  Which, is incredibly inconsiderate, I think.  Suffice to say, I need some r & r in my life.

I miss hugs. I miss conversations. I miss learning new things and sharing them. I miss stretching the way I think about things because you see it differently.
Sometimes the solitary life is difficult.

But, in the grand scheme of things, everything is fine. Plants are thriving, home is comfortable, I'm making alot of money at work. I see people I know all the time.
It's beautiful here, it's peaceful. The nights are magical.  I'm just tired, and solitary, and sometimes it gets to me.