No more stress

It's funny how much better you can feel after sleep with no dreaming.  I didn't wake up at all during the night, which hasn't happened in awhile.
I feel like I hit the breaking point with everything, and finally just let it all go.

Today was a pretty good day at work. I feel like I didn't mess up, really. I remembered pretty much everything, and things went smoothly.
I talked to Micah's mom this evening, which was kinda weird, but good. She had told me the last time we talked that she was getting her tooth pulled soon, so I just messaged her to she if it went okay. But then she asked about me, so I told her how I've been struggling with the overkill of emotions lately.
It was actually really good to tell her all the things I did, just because it helped me realize in my own head where I am. She expressed a concern that I was pining over Micah. I had to convey to her that I am not. I may miss him with every fiber of my being, heart and soul, but as it stands, I wouldn't change my decision to leave. I know I made the right decision.

I had actually been thinking about it today, he and I typically still talk on the phone every day, usually for about 2 hours. It helps with the distance. But, here's the deal, I don't talk to any of my friends that often. So, do we need to not talk so much?  I don't know. I just want to do what's right for him.  The selfish part of me wants to continue talking as much as we do, because I like doing life with him. And I don't want him to forget that he loves me. (I'm so pathetic)
I have 3 best friends besides him.
Eve- I go through phases of talking to her. Sometimes we talk a couple times a week, other times it can be months, and I've only known her 2 years, if that.
CJ- We used to do lots of things together, but now that I no longer live near her, we're pretty much only facebook friends. I think I've talked to her on the phone twice since I moved nearly a year ago.
Maggie- We were bestfriends, roommates, and excelled at being 5 together. I was in her wedding. We kept in contact after I moved... but then she got married, and then she had a baby. Sometimes that just means friends kind of fizzle. We still talk every couple of months, but that's about it.
There is Erin and Lauren also, basically the same stories.  We were close, but are no longer. 
Moral of the story, I don't want that to happen.  But maybe it will.
I feel like I'm just letting go of everything.
Do no harm.