The end

It's funny how the end just creeps up on you. I didn't get a choice in the matter once again. Obviously from reading my past posts, you know where my heart has been.
Maybe 8 weeks is a thing, that's as long as a relationship can last in my world.

I've been holding on, and it's been freaking him out. So I have to stop holding. Following a hard conversation, I sent him a pretty long email that wasn't very gentle. It was one of those "last word" letters, calling him out on a few major things. If there was even the smallest chance, I killed it, probably. I don't think I was unkind, because the long and short of it is that I love him, unconditionally. But, I didn't hold back, either.

Currently running on about 3 hours of sleep. Still trying to figure out my next step. My brother said he'd help me out as far as money goes in getting a new/used transmission for my car. So I'm going to find out about that tomorrow. Sigh.
It's never easy.

Serendipity, you tricksy bugger.