Too many pent up emotions from yesterday. This morning my boss told me to come outside with her, she needed to speak today. She told me that I create a unpleasant and occasionally hostile work environment because I tend to be stern, and always about work. "It's supposed to be a fun place to work." I don't chatter, and I don't chat about my life. I'm a pretty private person. I'm sorry that I'm at work to work. The clincher was the part where she told me, that if I wasn't such a hard worker she'd tell me not to come back. I very nearly told her to take the job and shove it. She's supposed to be my friend. It was at least a 30 minute talk, and then I sat outside sobbing for another 10, tried to go back inside, couldn't. Took at least another 5 minutes to calm down. All because the new guy thinks I hate him. I just can't. And I couldn't talk to my best friend about it. And that was rotten.
I think I'm not going to work there. I can't. I can't do the 80 hours a week again, it's stressing me out and today was the first day. 16 hours without sitting down. 30 hours without eating. I just can't.
I just don't have the wherewithal. It's gone.
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