the saga continues

I had another long talk with the boss as soon as I got there to work today. Suffice to say, that one was a little rough too. Luckily I had my conclusions from this morning to roll with. No more being ruled by feelings. They're turned off.  She told me not to forget that I'm human. I didn't tell her that I'm an alien. She doesn't need to know that. :-p
So today I've been pretty good. They let me off work early today, so I could've gone down to work a shift at the Dunes, but I think sleep is a better option. It helps with turning off feelings, and continuing after that turning point. Yes, I may have done this before.
The thing is, I may cope with external change pretty well, especially if it's a problem that needs solved. However, if it's human interactions- change in relationships that is not for the better is incomprehensible to me, and I tend to lose my shit. Even between my dad and my brother(s). Most recently, I did it to Mike when he ended things with me, and I feel really bad about it. So I have no intention of doing it again.
I just know that things are never going back to the way they were. Each day that passes makes it just a little bit easier to not have the other person in your life, until you only think of them occasionally. I've experienced this time and again.  Maybe I'm still overreacting, I don't know. My experiences are the only thing I have to draw from. 

So my schedule looks like it's going to be half days on Sunday and Tuesday, and off on Mondays, and the rest 16 hour days. 8 weeks. No sweat. (I might die.)